Cockroach Night

You are lying on the floor, as the room with no fan or AC is too hot yet the ground is always cold. The best way to capture this is by lying on the floor. Yet it's not comfortable to do that as the body is not used to the hard surface. And you remember you are not sensitive as a princess in the story of Princess and pea! Floor would do just fine for a couple of nights. Yet the problem is the cockroach.

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Cockroach Habitat

The floor is the habitat of the cockroach. It had been roaming free over the past few months at night when the giant monster was asleep. Yet now even when it tries to cross the room it brushes against the monster. The monster is making the cockroach a little confused. So far it had lived its little cockroach life risk free. It's a scavenger in the jungle of the room. Like a hyna for  savannahs. The giant, although it's scared, is the main source of food for the cockroach. As often it could find fallen food particles, leftovers and hiding places for it to be away during the day. Even a place to lay some eggs and bring cockroach offspring. It had two things in mind, one is to avoid danger and other is to feed itself. For the cockroach consciousness its life is precious. Which is evident by the fact it runs away in fear when the giant walks towards it. Yet, it had to take the necessary risk everyday to earth for food. 

And you look at this tiny creature who climbs up your leg without even knowing that you are the giant it tries to avoid at all cost. Slightest movement will make it run away and hide in a corner for a few minutes until its fear hormones disappear and hunger hormones start to rise again. Making it a fool for the stomach. You see no purpose in its life. Collectively cockroaches might be doing favour by keeping bugs in check. Yet individual cockroaches did not matter. Just like an individual mosquito, an individual ant or individual human. An entire symbiotic biome on earth doesn't make sense as it cancels out each other.

The Giant

Cockroach Night.

You take a moment to appreciate what you have been doing since morning. Going to work, in the office, typing line after line of code, to make a salary to buy stuff to fill your stomach with to create more fat out of nothing. How can you even born up these calories which accumulated just like your bank account. It doesn't make sense. When do you stop living a cockroach life and understand how to be. What else is there to the life other than being a cockroach and travel around your own home  called earth. And you appreciate the deed of the garage book seller bezos and his blue origin, creating an opportunity to reach space for the people who can afford this. Maybe for a day, Katy Perry and crew forgot that they are just cockroaches, when they wear space suits. Maybe they can fool all those other eight billion cockroaches to believe that they are made of different material and they are just super group of futuristic cockroaches.

Then you realise the irony of the fact. Life has found a way to persist by making individuals realise that they have an autonomy. Yet you see there is no immortal material which can make  something last longer than eternity. Hence no matter how hard we try, the extension of life would still not make any sense as it's impossible. Although you haven't seen the sixth dimension of the soul, still you agree that it would be eternally boring if the millenial man baked an eternal soul.

You were suddenly disturbed by the slipping sounds of the polythene bag. It seem cockroach had put himself inside a bag and was trying to get out. And you see the only way it is ever gonna do that is by going back the way it came in. And you turn back to yourself and ask, who am I? What am I doing here? Isn't it worth doing this without wasting any time at all?

Thank you for reading cockroach nights