It is time to renovate our kitchen. And we ordered a new set of pantries. Costly as ever. They used granite for the table top. If you do not know granite is just rock. If you own land and dig deep enough it is likely you would tumble upon a big granite. But here is the thing, when cutted with precision with modern machinery and polished. Rough edges smoothed and fitted perfectly on top of the pantry this rock makes a beautiful pattern that you cannot achieve by any other means. State of the art addition to our otherwise boring kitchen. And it had not taken too many years for us to come from cement and wooden pantry to granite tops. More importantly, it reminded me of a little story from Steve Jobs. Granite: https://unsplash.com/@enginakyurt Steve Jobs and Rock Tumbler I read his biography. At a time I did not know who this guy was. So it did not interest me, and I cannot remember anything from it. But later when I had my hands on the new smart phone, I saw this enthusiastic CEO of Apple Inc, one of the greatest companies of our time. I had seen him giving a couple of speeches and in one interview he talked about his childhood experience of a rock tumbler. As it is interesting and relevant I will re-write it here. Once when he was young Steve jobs had met his neighbour who showed him a rock tumbler in his backyard. He put some pretty regular rocks in the machine and some water, and powder, turned on the machine and they kept it running overnight. Following day when Steve Jobs went there he found out that the rocks have become really round polished marbles, with little bit of friction and tumbling the machine provided. And it had made him realise to build something beautiful, sometimes you just need few ingredients yet plenty of patience, refinement and iteration. Rocks : https://unsplash.com/@photolli How to create values You may think this is very common wisdom. Hard work, practise makes you perfect, right? But I would say there is more to it. I also believed in hard work and following the rules. But sometimes this is just not enough. More importantly I would say we need to understand the value system we use. All humans use the same value system and that is perfectly sitting in our consciousness. And when you believe enough about your own values slowly others start to believe in you as well. You do not trust me? Look at the billionaires in the world. Aren't they extraordinary ? Elon musk, Mark suckerburg, Jeff Bezoes, all these guys believe in themselves. If they come to a podium and say that they do not believe in themselves and they are not sure how their companies will do in the next year, you will see their stock prices plummet in the next minute and recovery would be impossible. Essentially they even have to hide their own sicknesses and failures and Act in front of the media just like a blind egotic believer in themselves. Just like Steven Seagal believes in himself and acts like he believes he is the greatest martial arts master. So if you do want to create a value. Maybe you should start believing in something. I am not sure what it is. But here is the truth. Just know that it is a belief, and it has no truth. Imagine you want to give a value to a piece of paper. Can you do that? I can show you ten more ways to give value to a paper. You can make a paper plane. Origami Swan. Make a ball and play with your kid Write a poem Solve an equation Tear it into small pieces and make a collage Draw a cartoon and make a video doing it Use it as a sieve Use it to blot water Dissolve it into a pulp and make a cardboard Creating value from Rocks: https://unsplash.com/@mariahhewines I am sure there are enough granites in your backyard and empty papers on your desk. So, make a wise choice to do something to it and create your own value , so it won't be empty next year. Instead you have a pile of polished marbles or a computer program for selling them.

In simple terms the world is a system of believes which assumed to be true. Well, that really needs more explanation than that. After looking at everything holistically, we can come to above conclusion about the world. It is not easy. It may be even unnecessary to know this to spend a successful life. But as " success " also a thing in this relative world someone wise might appreciate the importance of knowing this. Peanuts: https://unsplash.com/@olianayda What is a peanut? Imagine you went to the market and bought a peanut. Why peanut? Because it's something that you can keep on your palm small enough to know. You can choose anything. Even an onion would do. Keep it on your palm and look at it for a minute. And know what is feel like. Try to think about everything you know about this peanut. It's weight, its smell, its color, it's function. Depending on your knowledge you will spend few seconds or minutes or minutes. But the problem is you cannot know everything. If you turn the peanut around, you will know its backside. But what about the front side? If you feel it's weight, you will not focus on its color. You do not even know how many cells there in this peanut are. Weather this peanut on your hand is capable of creating another peanut. Really speaking you wouldn't even know this is a peanut. It's just a name that everyone agreed upon and put to these kinds of nuts. So, the peanut is a relative truth. Can you see what happens? Whenever you look at your peanut, you would access the database of your past where these relative truths are stored. And apply it to understand the current peanut. This process mind you has a long history. Since you were born to this world you have been storing these memories. And the fact is you do not know about the current peanut in your hand if not for the previous nuts in your memory. Coconuts: https://unsplash.com/@dangcong Danger of knowing what the world is. We can stop here for a moment. As I see the danger of believing this versus knowing in this. If you assume what I said was true about peanut, you will start to believe in a "false" world. A world with no peanuts, no coconuts and no cars or ships. The problem with this approach is it doesn't make you move forward. Making you stuck in an unrealistic world. You might not even get up from your bed. As it has no value in it if everything including money is relative. But instead, it must not be just knowledge but wisdom. But when your mind knows this fact and look at the world with mindfulness, you can experience this as a fact. It is like the nature has cheated us to believing in some kind of matrix, and the wisdom of relative truth is the code to break this matrix. If we are a giant one consciousness a single person breaking the illusion would be enough for the entire living species. Yet we are stuck in our own relative worlds. So individually we must see relativeness of truth for ourselves. The world is this picture: https://unsplash.com/@potapenko Knowing the world in mindfulness. I can remember a while ago, an afternoon in the turtle beach . A mesmerizing wave crashing on the coral reef to break up into thousand bubbles. And watching this in slow motion is even better than the reality. And it makes me happy to think about it. But the mind doesn't allow me to stay there, dwelling in this happiness. Or even sadness. As it was just my interpretation of the world. A fisherman living by the sea might not see what I see. Instead, I drive my mindfulness to the feeling of the cold tiles on my feet in the room. Maybe these pink walls harbor more meaning about life than the waves. The world is just a peanut, waves or walls. Whatever which comes to your mind, is the world.

Who are the April Fools? Its April first yet again. I am not sure how many Aprils first's you have come across so far in your life. Maybe you were fooled last year by your friends. For me I wouldn't mind a prank. As introverted, I am any kind of interaction with so called "General population" would be a win for me. I might even deliberately let myself be the victim of a prank just to see some people smiling faces. Isn't it fun when everyone laugh? Of course, one day the ones who prank would play the fool if they are not aware about what is happening in life. It is not only April first we let others to fool us. How about tomorrow April 2nd? You will wake up and listen to Fox news or CNN and let them fool us with fake news. Same story if you check two different channels at the same time side by side you will really be surprised what to believe. Truth is very rare phenomenon when consider news , just like little bit of water in UAE. It's hard to find and even oil is cheaper! So, if you may altogether quit news nothing would happen. And I would even not start on newspapers. News: https://unsplash.com/@ifoodijourney I am not saying they serve some purpose, maybe when it is a time of hurricane or a wildfire. Still fake is more than the truth. April fools at work How about at work? How about the future. We let ourselves get into a trap, which is called "Living a good life" and let ourselves be fooled by others. This time propaganda is bigger than we expect. As we all are part of a big game where we fool each other. And this happens at different levels. Imagine the co-operation you are working for. This co-operation makes some real money, capitalism at its best, and it keeps growing by using the hard work done by its workers, who are paid by their hours. Hours! that is the most insane scam of all time. It does mean, no space for individual creativity. No space for life. For what? To fill some family accounts with more zeros. Again, I am not saying the capitalism is bad. In fact, the opposite is truer. Capitalism is the best system so far, as it allows selfish greedy people to keep pushing others until they give out their last bit of consciousness. And things will push Forword more than in a communist society. At work: https://unsplash.com/@jramos10 It is insane. Husbands make their wives fools, while children try to rob their elderly parents. Wealthy countries try to scam out the precious material, from mineral to brains, from poorer countries. Making any chance of recovery impossible. Politicians try to appear saints, while saints wear white cloths, to show that they are clean. What are you expecting? It makes me laugh of our foolishness. Everyone just plays their own role perfectly to fool the other. I can see this will not go anywhere nice. Even mindfulness has become a scam. Mindfulness wisdom Mindfulness is the tool of the wise men and women in the past, against the lies that prevails. The biggest liar of them all is our minds. All the foolishness of fooling others starts by fooling ourselves first. The inability to see the truth is in fact the greatest foolishness. With mindfulness we can question our so-called reality until we understand true nature of the world. But I have seen over the years mindfulness has become a scam. As everyone trying to fool others with a secret pathway to success, mindfulness has become another cheat code for way to success . But still there is hope. I see this as a good thing, as even fake news would create a spark in wise people to seek truth, eventually which they will find within themselves. With nothing but their own Mindfulness. List of things we fool ourselves with. Few years of life expectancy- due to advanced medicine Global peace. Patriotism - until we are hit by a covid Tomorrow - thinking its predictable Love - Ah.. the most abused word in the world Heaven and hell Ethics - we are just crows This is just a start. you can add more. I can add more controversial things (like family) but let's, do that on another day.

Ludwig van Beethoven When I was a kid I heard this marvelous story of Ludwig Van Beethoven, a great musician. From my music teacher. She said, he was a great composer of music, and at some point, he went into a room, behind closed doors he mastered his craft and after five years he came out of that room as the greatest musician of his time. It was a little success story which was in the back of my mind for years, and just the other day I checked the facts. And it seemed true. After initial recognition as a novel musician, He had indeed had a gap in his career where he mastered the craft, alone. Nothing productive has come out of this period. No followers, no recognition, like vanished years. And this pattern is not uncommon. From time to time, we see these surprising comebacks. What happens? Piano player: https://unsplash.com/@akramhuseyn Shooting bamboo hypothesis Bamboo is one of the fastest growing plants in the world. Some fastest growing species have grown 90cm in 24 hours. But the fascinating fact is not its growth. But what you see on the surface is not what happens in the ground. They bamboo shoots spend years and years underground developing new root system, before they show any visible growth above the ground. And this can go on up to five years! So, in fact the rapid growth that we see, in a matter of days is not the full story. It is the outcome of a great foundation which it creates below the ground. This is the famous shooting bamboo hypothesis. We can compare the bamboo growth to the creativity , and many successful stories. Consider Usain Bolt. One of the greatest athletes of the 21st century. The total amount of time he has spent running actual race would be 50seconds. He has raced total only about one minute all his great career. But that is not the true story. I am sure, he has spent countless hours training himself, pushing his own boundaries, before he was able to race against similar hard-working athletes. Bamboo: https://unsplash.com/@velor Overnight success. Overnight success is just hypothetical. Unless you have a wealthy uncle, who is about to die of cancer. Yet often we see some people becoming successful overnight. They might even come in front of a crowd and boast about how they became a hero from zero, within one week. But the truth is far from this. Even the shooting bamboos are evidence of this. Overnight success is just the result of countless hours of experimenting. Maybe even not you, maybe it is generations of enthusiastic human beings. Imagine the Nobel prize. For that matter in any field. Do you think the one who wins the Nobel prize for physics next year would do that if Newton never thought about falling apples and gravity? We build upon our ancestors. Whether we liked it or not. So, the any man's or women's success is not isolated achievement. It should be considered an achievement of the entire human race. So, my advice is playing your part, grow your roots, it doesn't matter even if takes years. Colonel sanders invented KFC when he was at the age of 62. But he had developed better roots. And when you become successful be humble and thankful to the earth, water and air and generations of earthworms who made the ground a fertile soil for us to flourish. Colonel Sanders: https://unsplash.com/@northwoodn

Imagine you cannot create . I highly doubt that you cannot. More likely is you haven't yet found out what you are good at. But let's assume for a fact that you do not have the ability to create something and you are 100% sure that the gene is not there. What can you do? What is the next best thing? I would say, the next best thing you can do is to collect things. I am not sure what it is you are going to collect. Maybe feathers, maybe dried up leaves, maybe marbles. It really doesn't necessarily have to have a value. And there is a point I am going to make. That is the value increases over time whatever you collect. Most likely as your collection grows people will make notice of this. First they will start to look amazed. They will come and visit your collection. They will talk about it and get photographs. And Obviously you are going to find some meaning to your collection. It will be surprising when it happens, and I can tell you that is one of the best feelings you are gonna get. Stapms collection: https://unsplash.com/@eze_cmf I know about a guy who collected films. Just for a hobby. At a time nobody cared. He had collected even terrible films. Black and white. Everything he could get his hands on. And after years and years, maybe 40-50 years, he has the finest collection of films from the whole country. And once he had digitized his collection the value was uncountable. It's not always about money. Its vintage, historic records of the era of film industry. The places in these films have markedly changed. I am sure generations of his grandchildren will benefit from his collection. And this is only one good example. Benefits of making a collection of things Collecting is easy. It doesn't have to involve a lot of effort. No need to spend a lot of money and resources either. But the most important ingredient should be passion. You should be passionate about what you are collecting. So even when it doesn't have any value for others to appreciate, it will grow in value in yourself. I would say it is like having a good relationship. In a relationship what you essentially invest Is time. Time is an invaluable asset. If it is kind of rewarding inherently if the relationship is passionate. Just like that, your habit of collecting things should atleast make you feel good. There are a lot of examples we can learn from nature as the ability to collect fancy stuff is not inherent to humans. Do it until it becomes the finest collection of things, with your spare time. Maybe some Music: https://unsplash.com/@nataliedivine Not collecting is also important I think this is enough to give you the message you should collect something. Yet there is more. For a major part of this life I have believed in the opposite. Which means, not collecting things. Even photographs, memories, toys. There is some truth in this too. Because none of the collections you make, you will not be able to take to the afterlife. So a true seeker, who seeks the meaning of life should be able to give up collections. Not make them bigger. But then why am I asking you to collect things, while emphasising your collections have no inherent value? The reason  is unexpected. As earlier I used to think the spiritual life I seek is the same as the successful life I seek. But now I understand these are two different things. It is true the collections we create in life have no meaning when we look at it from a point of view of  a true spiritual seeker. But they have a profound value when we consider a successful life. And most importantly they do not have to cross each other. There is no clash when you understand these are just two different points of views, originating from the same mechanism. In Fact we do not have to give any value to either of these and still live life. What do you think? Do you believe you are extraordinary ?

Waiting for the buses. I can remember the hours spent in buses. I would wait two hours at the bus stop until a bus. Just standing in front of a crowd always on the move. They walk like ants. Going somewhere, chasing something. I never see a smile on their faces. I did not understand why. Why do these middle aged daily waged crowds never smile while walking? Are they not happy about the freedom they have? They have money they can buy any sweet. They have time, no need to learn anything. They can travel. Why are they not free? That was a good twenty years ago. Now I understand why. These people have a lot of memories. They are in a constant struggle to keep their hungry mouths full and decaying bodies healthy. They have money but in a constant loop of work in keeping a steady income. Their time to relax to work ratio is not very nice. 2 : 5 maybe even less. The only happiness is the temporary dopamine surge They get turning into Netflix Game of thrones. Most of their teenage dreams are shattered now. And there is no way of turning back. I can put myself in their minds and see why they are not happy. Buses : https://unsplash.com/@oliver_photographer I look at the hedonist mind instead. Then I see the ones with rich parents and elite parents are not different either. They too end up in despair when their bodies betray their hedonistic lifestyles with diabetes, hypertension and cancer. The relative dream of life. So what do they do? They try to preserve life by making offsprings. That is easily provided by nature as the ability to replicate. It seems like a desperate attempt by human consciousness to understand the nature of life. Maybe making life multiplanetary and preserving it as long as possible is the solution. This is why Populations grow at times of stress. I wish I were an idiot, so I do not realise the relative dream of life. So I can be blessed for being ignorant about the failed attempt of my Forefathers. Obviously I am the living example of their failure. No, not the triumph. If they did understand the nature of life I am sure there would be no me. Then I question myself, am I not geared to do the same? Same boring path of adding some more consciousness to the same river, and hoping they would find solutions when they get flabbergasted by the happenings of life. What can I do today to make sure that the same mistake is not repeated again? Maybe the answer is in the selfishness . Maybe answers are in the stars or in 42. If I am an idiot, it would have been easy. I could cash some dollars and spend them on travelling. Eat from McDonalds until I get metabolic syndrome. Yet it doesn't happen that way. As like anything else, I have no choice over intelligence as well. Just like the height, skin color and nationality. Answer 42: https://unsplash.com/@srz Trains and souls. I hear the train passing over the old rails. Making a noise which disturbs the sound of  buses. I did not see it. But I know it's a train. Maybe there was no train and it could be a sound made by a movie played in the background. But the most likely scenario is a real train did pass. Just like myself. I have heard a lot of people saying things about myself and I believe in this now. I haven't seen myself. In a mirror I see a reflection of something. I can make it do things, but souls are not reflected in mirrors. These things called thoughts which arise are the only reflections which makes me know about myself. And I see I have no control over what it thinks about next. Just like Bob Dylan said. It's like magic. Like the universe chose what I am going to think next, put it exactly at the right time. Is it about the crows, buses or crickets?  But I see why those people were not happy. They were worried about something that the universe has done. A thought that they had in the past. But they chose responsibility for a thought that they haven't even seen, for that and chose to feed it with more thoughts. They do not see what's happening in their minds right now. And they do not try to find out. Just letting the generations old traditions dictate what they do. Maybe the universe is not ready for them to know the truth. That they are chasing a relative dream

I am not going to lie here. What is the point. If you search this blog " success " you will find plenty of material for building your life with. But I always like to break the bubble after making them. As that is the natural ending of an any bubble you going to create. So, if you are too young to read this shit called truth about life. Go somewhere else, as there are plenty of gurus out there with 10000 steps of success. But here I am trying to figure out life as I can see my bubble had same life expectancy as my parents. Who knows, by the time you read this people might have gained a 500-year life by genetically engineering telomeres. If then you can come back when you are 490 years old and still this will apply to you. I guarantee even if you are 99.999 % closer to immortality still guaranteed life is a failed experiment. But for the ones who think immortality is the solution I can say, well it will be f...g boring when the sun dies, and you are just floating in the eternal darkness until next big bang. Bubbles of life: https://unsplash.com/@pichler_sebastian Life is an experiment of nature I see termites build a house adjacent to our garden. They work as a colony and bring about a few feet tall tower. If we compare their size to the height of the tower, I am sure it will surpass the Buraj Kalifa or even Jeddah tower, if they ever finished it. And I know as a fact, that the underground Palace they build is even bigger than the tower. Well only if I am an idiot, I would calculate how many football fields that they cover. But the point is these tiny termites are forced to do this by nature. By a tiny force called will in their brains. And I am sure none of them had classes on how to build towers. Yet they do. Somehow the nature wants termites to survive as a population and they are bounded in unity by this force. Across space, although they seem action by individual will hardly that is true. Termite theory is not common to termites, it is common to crows as well, mangroves jelly fish. Everyone struggles to survive, and everyone tries to make their dinner plate from the other. A significantly cruel game. And guess who is crowned at the top of this! It's us. We hacked the nature by preserving knowledge over generations, and hence marked preservation of human life with otherwise would have been in a natural balance. And its growing day after day. Collectively as a colony we are winning. But the nature is cruel. Although we think we are moved by the so-called society, individually we have the same fate as a termite. We just help in building a giant termite tower and even be proud of part that we play in doing so. We teach our children how to make perfect termite houses and even cars without ever thinking why in the first place. As I can see this is the best way to lose this game. Termite Tower: https://unsplash.com/@ingeborgkorme Objective of the natures experiment Nature wants to preserve life. Not you. Individually you are nothing for the nature. Nature do not care you live or die, as long as you create your offspring and make them independent until they are big enough to preserve life. Nature doesn't care about your happiness. Your peace. It will force thoughts in you until you do your "duty" to the "society" or for that matter your colony. And if you go against this and try to figure out life like a true seeker, I am sure you will be attacked by the same colony that you try to preserve. These forces are bigger than just an invisible magnetism. And they appear as races, ethnicity, nationality and skin colors. Now I do not spare myself here. I know countless philosophers in the past you just questioned life. But carried on routine tasks till the end, no liberation whatsoever. Yet I do not try to preserve life. Maybe answers are there trying to understand life . It seems hard. It seems complex. It seems illusionary jumble of words. But maybe the fundamental experience of life has no meaning and trying to preserve it can be the real driving force for its existence in the first place. With these thoughts in mind, I let my eyes close on another hard-working day. After all life do seems like an experiment of nature, and it's guaranteed to go wrong for individual and the entire life. I did not ask for this life. Who gave it and why? Observation and creating problems are all that it does. I do not wish for a heaven. Neither to end this. Let it be till it last. Let it sleep tonight. Maybe tomorrow I will understand why?

One step at a time. If you are about to climb a mountain or walk across USA , one step at a time is good advice. It makes sense when we consider a walk. But this is a very good mindfulness advice too. Here in this article, I am going to show you how we can use this wisdom into our lives. Let's imagine you are washing the dishes. If we take this as a single task it can feel overwhelming. But unless you are doing with a dish washer, you are only going to do one dish at a time. So really what is important is the dish at your hand. One step at a time: https://unsplash.com/@lindsayhenwood How about eating ? I am sure you enjoyed a nice meal. But did you enjoy the meal or just swallow it whole. You may find it easier to practice mindfulness if you consider one bite at a time. It is not the one in your hand. Not the one on the plate, but the one in your mouth is the one which tastes. So, if we focus on the other, guess what? You won't even feel the taste. Do not disturb yourself by imagining your whole life at once Markus Aurelius When we hear the above quote by Markus Aurelius, that is all what we can think of. To not to disturb yourself by focusing on one specific task at a time not everything else. But there is more to it. Generally, when we consider life or speak of it, we imagine this as a thing between the birth and the death. The whole spectrum of toddler years childhood youth adulthood and elderly included. And we imagine this and be anxious happy or sad. And we label someone as a successful or a failure depending on this spectrum , looking at it holistically giving it a value. A book: https://unsplash.com/@longlivehaas What if life is a novel? But above wisdom tells us to look at the life in chapters, even pages, even paragraphs, if life is a novel. Then, while you are writing this paragraph called today or the task at hand, it will help us to shape it as perfect as possible without worrying the final outcome. This wisdom is not a secret. Nowadays everyone talks about it. Mini habits, tiny habits, flow etc. But there is a catch. Only mindfulness enthusiasts will look beyond what is obvious. Let's look back at our analogy of life compared to writing a novel. Obviously, chapters of this novel appear ending with different outcomes. Childhood chapter ends with a certain outcome when the college chapter begins. Single chapter ends once married. Even paragraphs make sense. Today ends with a certain outcome. You can do certain tasks one step at a time. You can even focus individual sentences and make a meaning out of it. But if you however decided to dissect further and look at the letters individually it doesn't make sense. Aggregations and combinations. Combinations: https://unsplash.com/@polarmermaid Individual letters have no meaning in your novel. Only the aggregation or the combination makes a meaning. Similarly, what you do in each second in your life doesn't make any sense. It is the combination or aggregation of these seconds create a meaning. Now the real question is do life has an inherent meaning to it or is it just an apparent illusion like a novel created by individual letters. Is life an aggregation of meaningless minute steps? How small these steps are and how can anyone make sense out of it. If these small steps are meaningless, who creates the meaning of life? Who gives the values of success and failure to each aggregation of meaningless seconds of the day? I am not sure about you, but I am perplexed by these thoughts. I can ignore and jump into the ocean of pleasures those aggregated chapters provide. That's what I do for most of the day. Yet as an evolving part of the human consciousness, I also try to push the boundary towards the unknown. If Marcus Aurelius was here, or Socrates did exist as an AI I can ask these questions and try to make another aggregation of meaning. Yet I cannot do that. So, I ask you the question. The commoners like me, does life make any sense to you? If so, how? Did you dissect these meanings into individual syllables or just believe as it is just an aggregation?

What is life? Some days. I wish they did not exist In my Calander of past. Horrified memories which haunt Every other happy night I try to contain them in places So, they do not spill over to others Like a bleeding robot, with my weakened arms. Fk...g spectacle to the crowd This is not the first time I am attempting to answer the question. And if it wasn't for this question, I would have not written this blog. What is life? Earlier I Said it can be given In summary as A Sisyphean suffering of perpetual wheel of self . I think it is very difficult to understand. Yet I found the perfect example from the modern-day art, which clearly shows the life. And it is from non-other than Famous sculpture by Sun Youan and Pen Yu. Can't help myself. the Sculpture Can't Help Myself: 58th Venice Biennale | Aleksandr Zykov | Flickr This is a kinetic sculpture. It is better if you can see this once so I will link it here. But it is simple robotic arm, which tries to keep a red color fluid within its circle. And this fluid is needed for its functioning. That is just what's there to it. In initial few years it moved fast. And was capable of keeping its fluid within near its feet. And even had time to do some playful tricks to entertain visitors. Within its glass walls it looked energetic. As the time goes by, it's movements are not agile anymore due to wear and tear. And fluid is now barely under control. The glass walls are splashed with blood. And the machine is in desperate attempt to keep running. There is no time for tricks and entertainment as it is struggling to keep alive. I am sure anyone looking at this more than few minutes are going to feel sad. And it is inevitable we empathies about the struggle of the robot. Yet we don't understand that it is the same struggle that we are involved in so called living. Can't help myself - In life Doughnuts.: https://unsplash.com/@kobbymendez I life, we have a bucket of water inside us which travels through our circulatory system. Which we must keep clean and fresh all the time. We need to breath, we need to eat, we need to go to toilet, to keep it in balance. Drink water when it dries up. And to do all these we need energy. We need to work at the mall, in the hotel, in the farm or the company. If we don't do it, we would lose the capacity to keep the bucket of water fresh. And this is a struggle. We are so used to it that we forget that the troubles. As we even see them as opportunities! Opportunity for what? We see, the promotion in the job as an opportunity. We see vacation as an opportunity. We see paid travelling to space station as an opportunity to see the world. Yet we fail to understand the struggle that we are involved in, to keep ourselves not dying. It is due to so called living. At least we know who is to blame in the case of the art "Can't help myself". It is the artist duo who made it. But do we know who is to blame in our case? I am sure your boss, or your wife, or your parents or even president is not the creator of you. If I could meet him today, I would ask why? Why you decide to create myself and give me the power just enough to keep the same so-called life? Why created this weak body and mind which needs constant support for existence. If given the choice I would choose nonexistence rather than this. What is life? But the machine that bleeds doesn't ask such questions. It keeps on sweeping the floor like a slave. We do not have to worry as there is no consciousness which suffers inside that robotic arm. I am more empathic about every other living being though. I can only smile at their stupidity when they smile and praise the God when they eat a sugary doughnut. If they only had eyes and ears to look at themselves outside their own glass prisons, they would see it is not the taste which is the pleasure, but the hunger is the problem. And they are bleeding all over the floor every passing minute because of the struggle. So, I chose mindfulness over anything to spend my time with. To look at myself in the mirror on the wall like Lil Wayne sang about it. Mirror on the wall (woo), here we are again (yeah) Through my rise and fall (uh) You've been my only friend (yeah) You told me that they can understand the man I am So why are we here talking' to each other again? Mirror on the wall

I claim intellectual rights to what I write. I claim to be credited for a piece of poem I created. But deep down from the bottom of my heart I know I am guilty of stealing. I'm guilty of stealing ideas, melodies, words from the previous generation. Philosophically we all are thieves and you would die if you do not steal intellect. How we learned to steal? Remember there was a time, you were mumbling? Trying to speak out a monosyllabic, or bisyllable. And after months and months of hearing your parents call you started saying those words "mama" "papa". And that is the beginning of our journey of intellectual theft. Well you can say that is not theft at all. They wanted me to know them. And they gave it for free.  Yes they gave it free in the kindergarten. Almost free for 12 years in school. Even in higher education. Knowledge is free. So we did not feel we were stealing. Now packed with all the knowledge and words accumulated over the years from all the free universe, I built upon this a hypothesis. And generate some new knowledge. And add a new word to human knowledge and what I do?  Is this true? https://unsplash.com/@jontyson I label it as my poem. My novel. My blog. My picture. My f-c-ing property. It is understood why I do this. If it didn't have a potential which is called "money" and "fame" then nobody would even care for human knowledge. Nobody would conduct an experiment. And we all will die relatively dumber than our immediate previous generation. However the game of trying to succeed each other did push us over all the imaginary boundaries.  So I do not blame the game of stealing that we play. After all that's what made us capable of creating miracles. Why we all are thieves stealing from nature. And it's been decades passed that we lost the value of abundant nature and shifted them to poems. I often do this. When I see a mesmerising sunset , I create a poem out of it. I take  a photograph for free. And I do not pay a penny to the sun or the moon. I proudly present it to my friend and expect appreciation. Like I have created the colors from my kodak camera using my eyes. I take my paintbrush and recreate it on a canvas which is out of some cut down trees. And preserve the colors, over time. An approximation of nature. I have stolen from nature, but have no shame in presenting in a grand ballroom in front of a crowd from elite society and call myself an artist in doing so. I appear to be an artist not a thief among every other thief. I am learning mathematics. Thanks to the generation of teachers who wrote them in books. Free of charge. I learn them deep enough so I can carry on learning on my own. A new realm of abstraction. And suddenly I find a solution for an unsolvable equation. And I present a paper proudly in front of other mathematicians and win the nobel prize. When their faces frown with jealousy I call myself a successful mathematician. Not a thief. Recreating the nature: https://unsplash.com/@birminghammuseumstrust I learn about life, build a circle of friends. Follow rules to start a business. With the help of thousands of enthusiastic individuals stealing time of their consciousness, which they should be using to investigate themselves. And I exploit this by paying them hourly to build something novel, a flying car or an 8G Internet. And I call myself a brilliant  successful entrepreneur not a thief. Will I get caught? But on my deathbed , I realise it's all just part of the illusion. The selfish representation of my existence can be called as all of my possessions that I stole. I am sure they will last for everyone else, but not for me. After I am dead. Finally I can agree I have been a thief all my life, confess to the devil and expect to return to my heaven. The question is should I be allowed? Is there a way to not be a thief?

Jacob and kids. Jacob was on the bench. Looking at the kids playing in the ground. While their anxious young mothers waited outside the circle, hoping they would come out without a scratch, which was unnecessary and excessive. Then he wondered how many of them played for the national leagues in few years to come. Hmmmm. Unlikely. It is unlikely single one of those 22 kids would end up taking football as a significant career choice. He didn't even count the ones on the bench! They wouldn't come out of their bench. Isn't it still unnecessary and excessive? Why do they even have a bench? For the poor kids to thaw their dreams until they realise they do not have a talent? He was sure their dreams were planted and watered by looking at the goat CR, the lucky bugger who could do nothing but kick a ball, and post motivational speeches on tik tok. How many dreams are going to be shattered until they figure out and settle laying bricks or counting numbers for a corporation controlled by FB. Would they ever even know that they are going to prepare for those entire years of youth learning maths just to do that? Victims of the society, the giant witch swallows every life at the end. Football: https://unsplash.com/@neonbrand Jacob and elephants. His thoughts were disturbed by the ringing of the bell of the passing bicycle. A family of five cycled across him. Father in the front three kids and their mother in the rear as always. And the three kids? Not bad. If the population needs to be kept at a constant they should at least bring out 2.1 kids during their lifetime. Then how someone brings 0.1 kid. Simply impossible. So it is likely this is the family which is the one out of ten who would be allowed to keep the extra kid. If it was in China! They could pay the government for the extra kid, or better to have a lottery to be fair. But how would they even be so sure that all of them would be living upto reproductive years and even would have kids. Maybe they would become single lonely philosophers skiing on park benches, or backpackers wasting their knee cartilage on climbing eight thousanders without making 2.1 babies. Maybe that is their ambition. Two in fourteen of these children would never make a kid in the first place. And they will only find it out when they come to testing the theory of "will I able to make a child" period. But for now, it looks like they are a "happy family". Jacob remembered the elephant family he saw a few years back. Not long ago he was teaching in a rural African village, and often he would encounter elephants. Everyone knew about the elephant family. Exactly like the one on bicycles. There were five. The calves of different ages. And the tusker was majestic. He was guiding everyone through the challenging forest with many years of his experience. There was no difference he saw in those mothers looking at their child at play. Just like the elephant mother, while the father was away at work, they kept their children safe. But do they even know that these feelings they feel, anxiety and feeling of protection doesn't come from their own free will? It is common to elephants, it's common to humans, and even an ant that started to climb his feet. Aaaaaaw.... Ants: https://unsplash.com/@entomologista Jacob and ants story Suddenly one of them bit on his left arm just below the sleeve. Where did even that ant came from he didn't even see. Does ant even know there is an intruder? It cannot. Looking at the size of the thing it's obvious it cannot possess a consciousness that big. It won't Even able to recognise "anger" from "hunger" but it happens all the time. Hence it is doing its duty for the ant colony or the collective "ant" consciousness. Which surely it would never know that's what it was doing. Jacob tried to blow away the ant but it did not move. It had no intention of saving its life so Jacob had to peel it off the skin and inevitably that would mean the death of the ant. It sacrificed its own life for what? Like a warrior in a battlefield, maybe it thought that it had a will in doing this. A little bit of pride and patriotism for the colony it represents. But one ant bite is not going to do it. To move Jacob the giant it's simply not enough and Aaaaaaw..... Another one bit, this time on the left hand. And that one looks like a real warrior with a bigger head, bigger ego and determination looks like knowing what it's doing. And the first one still sting and Jacob realised they didn't come from the sky. So he moved his feet to know the ant colony he had stepped on. Jacob didn't want the trouble. Victory was theirs, and before the death toll on the ant colony became too high he decided to step away and let them in peace. With so much respect for nature which sends a message through the sacrifice of two ants who didn't have a free will.   He moved with his own free will. Thank you for reading "Jacob and ants story" Next -> Jacobs dream .

Crows and the earth. It's a hot sunny afternoon. Crows have gathered around a pool in the middle of the ground. Yesterday it was raining. Entire day's effort of tropical sun couldn't evaporate it all, leaving plenty for the crows to have a bath. I was wondering what they felt. Individually they must be feeling happy and content. They do not make a big noise like when they are hungry. I am sure they all are happy with their lunch and how the day went so far.  Crows having a bath. Instead of thinking about crows, I took a moment to appreciate the water hole and the ground. It seems obvious to me the water and the ground doesn't feel anything about it. They are just there. Just like earth without any judgement. Water doesn't care who bathes in it, who drinks it or who is going to fight about it. It exists without knowing it exists. Crows on the other hand suffer from the sun. And they have enormous value for water as it is necessary for their existence.  What if there is no consciousness in the universe? Not even God himself. I can only imagine. I am not entirely sure earth would exist. Just the way it is without knowing its existence. Only I can tell if I am there to observe it is true or not. And it made me realise it doesn't matter. In this life all I have done is looking at things existence, and keeping this consciousness to observe more in every passing minute. And it doesn't make sense. Earth would not care if all the crows are not there, as earth doesn't have ability to think. Crows on the other hand do care, and that is what their constant noise suggests. What will you delete from earth? From twitter. Just the other day someone from twitter asked what would you delete if you can, from earth. What is the one thing you would not want to continue? Answers obviously were numerous. Unexpected and chaotic. And without proper reasoning. I would list out some answers that show you something common to all of them. AI Mosquitoes Democrats Sex toys Corruption  Paedophile Central banking Hate  Poverty Demons Gravity Sound  Ignorance Vegetarians Democrats (may be too much) And the list kept going on. Can you tell me one thing common to them? As you can see these are all answers to some problems. But not all of them. Deleting sounds is a solution for noise, but would create more problems on roads. Deleting poverty would be a solution but some would not like to sacrifice their comfort. Can you see? But if you have followed the above crow argument we can say that Deleting the knower, would be a good choice. Because the earth would not care even if every life perished on it. It's only our illusion of Persistence that makes us suffer in this world as we have to try hard to keep it alive. Infact few of them answered as they would delete themselves. And I couldn't help asking them why as I did not know they were referring to self harm. Self harm is not a solution. Non existence is not self harm or death. We really do not know death would solve any problems; it might make everything worse, or good. (Sausage Party) Roots: https://unsplash.com/@npi Philosophical answer. But as you can see, if the knower, and the knowing did not exist, there would be no problem. So it is utmost important we  examine the true nature of the knower as answers to all our problems are there. That is the root cause of all the problems that earth does not have! If the massive earth exists without any problem, or worry about its birth and death. Why should I? Maybe I am just nature's mistake, which is unnecessary, excessive and bizzare. Maybe all the consciousness is. Why should we even try to preserve? I do not understand, because for me, trying to turn it off seems to be a more rational solution. So with this new wisdom I have given the following two definitions to life. Definitions for life. Life: Unexpected error of nature which branched off from its nonexistent form into a self-sustaining illusionary form of selfishness which inevitably ceased to exist. Life: crows What do you think about this?